我不是个勇敢的孩子。我害怕困难，我害怕前路的茫然，还害怕面对前路的艰辛，我害怕面对没有方向感的世界，我害怕失去自我。我总是会在事情快要有结果的时候，特别是在自己有不好感觉的时候，选择逃避。
I'm not a brave boy. I'm afraid of difficulties, I'm afraid of the blankness of the road ahead, and I'm afraid of facing the hardships of the road ahead, I'm afraid of facing the world without a sense of direction, and I'm afraid of losing myself. I always choose to escape when things are about to come to an end, especially when I have a bad feeling.
我总是想学着去坚强，可是坚强并不是那么容易的一件事。坚强总不是我想象的那样子坚强，它并不是两个字，它并不是一种心情，它不是一时的冲动就能完成的事情。我觉得它好难。我曾经尝试着去做，可是最终我还是失败了。我还是放弃了。虽然事情总是以失败而告终，虽然事情总是以放弃而结束，但是我并没有很轻易的说出不。搜虽然不是个勇敢的孩子，可是我也不是轻易放弃的孩子。我的放弃总是在挣扎了之后才做出的决定。
I always want to learn to be strong, but being strong is not so easy. Strong is not as strong as I imagined, it is not two words, it is not a mood, it is not something that can be accomplished by impulse. I find it hard. I tried to do it, but in the end I failed. I gave up. Although things always end in failure, although things always end in giving up, but I didn't say no very easily. Although sou is not a brave child, I am not a child who gives up easily. I always give up after struggling to make a decision.
请你不要以为，在你坚强了之后就一定是彩虹，就一定是美丽的世界在等着你，人并不是会事事都顺心，我们照样会面临失败，我们照样会面临痛苦，我们照样会面对哭泣，只是在我们失败在我们痛苦在我们哭泣之前，你要尽量争取。
Please don't think that after you are strong, it must be a rainbow, it must be a beautiful world waiting for you. People don't always go along with everything, we will still face failure, we will still face pain, we will still face crying, but when we fail, before we cry, you should try your best to fight.
或许，我是个失败的孩子，我是个还没有长大的孩子。所以我的世界总是失败比较多。不管我努力了多少，我的失败率总是会有70%。
Maybe, I am a failed child, I am a child who has not grown up. So my world always fails a lot. No matter how hard I try, my failure rate will always be 70%.
可是那天之后，我觉得，我的生活不该是这样子的，我的生活也不应该是失败的，我的生活也该是五颜六色的。我也权利我也有能力去争取彩虹的。
But after that day, I felt that my life should not be like this, my life should not be a failure, and my life should be colorful. I also have the right to fight for the rainbow.
生命真的很脆弱。大自然两分钟的颤抖，我们就面临生离死别，我们就开始人心惶惶，我们就开始不知所措，我们的大地就是一阵阵的慌乱。
Life is really fragile. Two minutes of shaking nature, we will face the separation of life and death, we will start to panic, we will start to be at a loss, our land is a flurry of panic.
同样，生命也是很坚强的。废墟中的可乐男孩，为了有活着意志力的看书女孩，那个废墟中锯掉双腿才被拯救出来的女孩，经历了几天几夜还能被解放军战士救出来的人们，如果面对着眼前的废墟，看着周围的黑暗世界，他们放弃了生的意志力，那么他们活着吗？他们还有生存的希望吗？
Similarly, life is also very strong. Coke boy in the ruins, in order to read a Book girl with living willpower, the girl who saw off her legs in the ruins and was rescued after several days and nights, people who could still be rescued by PLA soldiers, if they face the ruins in front of them and look at the dark world around them, they give up living willpower, are they alive? Do they have any hope of survival?
经历了那天，我渐渐的明白，我好像不再是个小孩了，我该做的事情还有很多，我不该那么轻易的说放弃，很多事情我要是再咬咬牙，我也是可以看见彩虹的，我也是可以看见美丽的火光的，可是我总是在最关键的时候犹豫了。尽管我的犹豫也是经历了思考的，可是要是我在思考一下，再好好的想一想，我的周围也会有美丽的奇迹出现的，我的彩虹也在不远处的。我错过了很多次看见彩虹的机会了。
After that day, I gradually understood that I was no longer a child, and there were many things I should do. I shouldn't give up so easily. If I bite my teeth again, I can see the rainbow, I can see the beautiful fire, but I always hesitated at the most critical time. Although my hesitation also experienced thinking, but if I think about it, and think about it well, there will be beautiful miracles around me, and my rainbow is not far away. I missed the chance to see the rainbow many times.
错过的是永远不会再来的，眼前的还在，我要抓住现在，对眼前的事情不要轻易说不了，我要用心的去坚持，我应该用尽自己全身的力量去争取。还是那句，经历了风雨不一定见彩虹，可是不经历风雨就一定不会看见彩虹。
What I miss will never come again. What I have in front of me is still there. I want to seize the present. Don't say anything about what I have in front of me easily. I want to stick to it with my heart. I should try my best to fight for it. Still that sentence, through the wind and rain may not see the rainbow, but do not experience the wind and rain will not see the rainbow.
